Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Alone Again Naturally

She blew into my life like a hurricane. She shook me up like an earthquake. My life as I knew it was destroyed, and I loved her for it. But for all their magnitude, earthquakes and hurricanes don't last very long. The land becomes still again. The wind subsides. And I find myself alone.

I try to convince myself that it was for the best. As much good as she did for me, we had vastly different ideas of how a relationship should be defined.

It takes a while getting used to being alone. But once some one comes into your otherwise quiet life, filling your days and your thoughts, you gladly open yourself up to the new. But, when she leaves, the process of getting used to being alone has to start all over again. It is a painful process. I still long to see her, I check for emails way too often.

I've been through this before, I know how it goes. I accept it, although I don't much like it.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Mark Horvath of Invisiblepeople.tv

Mark Horvath, author of hardlynormal.com and the creator of invisiblepeople.tv, a website documenting his tour of homelessness across the country, was in town today. And after a lunch meet up with Nathan Baker of clickhomeless.com, and Tasha French of the homeless newspaper The Contributor, I took Mark on a tour of tent city in Nashville, where he interviewed a couple homeless folks.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Biggest Threat To Society

A recent pole on Facebook, asking people what they thought was the biggest threat to society. It's funny that the BIG excuse our government used to invade the middle east, isn't really a big concern for people.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Being In It

I wrote about it on Facebook, but I haven't talked about it here yet. (perhaps I should Facebook less and spend more time on my blogs) But a few weeks ago I was able to take a trip to North Mrytle Beach. I was tagged along with a friend to a condo with a last minute opening. That's how I got to hang out with the fine young ladies of home-ec101.com for a couple days, along with their young charges - 5 kids total, ages 8 and under.

Something happens to a person who lives homeless for an extended period, like I have. They develop the ability to remove themselves mentally, or perhaps spiritually, from the environment they find themselves in, on the streets, in shelters etc. The homeless environment is ugly and depressing, and so to survive being in it, mentally, you have to create some distance between yourself and the place in which you find yourself.

After being homeless for so long, the mentality of "removed" becomes more permanent. It becomes the default your default mindset. This mindset is in play even when you're not in the homeless environment, and long after you've left it.

But, being so out of my element, into the beach, that homeless survival mentality has started to shake itself off. The sand, the surf, the cool water, the waves, the taste of the salt water, and then the bit of sunburn, started bringing me around, to feel myself as being a part of the world, and not just a reluctant observer.

Today, back in Nashville, as I stand at my front door, feeling the hot summer sun on my face, and the cool A/C air from my apartment escaping to the outside, I really feel myself in the moment, and in the place. I'm starting to feel alive again, and it is good.

A Banner Day

Not long after I started blogging, I developed a readership. And some of these readers are still following this blog today. One such reader is Morgan Brown. Morgan is fairly unique in that he too has been homeless. Even before I started this blog, he had a website. Now he blogs too. He writes about his own experiences of being homeless, and uses his internet presence as a means to advocate for the homeless and people will mental illnesses.

Over the years,things have gotten slowly better for Morgan, as his own popularity has grown. For a while now, he has been able to secure decent Winter shelter, although during the Summer months he has had to sleep outside.

For a while Morgan has been looking into housing. And today he will be moving into an apartment of his own. He certainly deserves a round of applause.

It is not easy for a chroncially homeless person to move off the streets and into what is considered normal housing. Being homeles is not easy to get used to, but once you do, then leaving homelessness is just as difficult. Being homeless becomes one's comfort zone. Change, even change for the better, is not always easy. But he has done it. And I'm very glad for him.

You can find his blog at norsehorseturf.blogspot.com. Go pay him a visit.

Monday, August 10, 2009

New Blog On Homelessness

This is a very well written, first person account of life at a homeless shelter, by an employee of the shelter. I highly recommend it. Alas, the writer of that blog just requested I remove the link.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Trying Something New

Ok, I took a bit of a break from blogging. And I was seriously contemplating the end of blogging for me. There is a point of burnout that I reach, as I write on this one niche subject. Sometimes I feel that I've said everything I can about homelessness. And sometimes I feel that no one is really listening to what I have to say anyway. It does feel good to take a break from this blog from time to time. When I am blogging about homelessness it really consumes me, takes up all my thought and energy - even when it doesn't seem like I'm writing much, my mind is deep into it.

Well, one thing I thought about writing, even back before I started blogging, was a guide on how to survive homelessness. I never got around to it. And others have attempted the same without much success. But perhaps this will be a different enough angle on the subject of homelessness that I'll be inspired again to write.

This new "How To Survive Homelessness" blog will take place at WordPress under "Thehomelessguy" title. Here is the link, thehomelessguy.wordpress.com I should have a new post there later today.

This blog, at Blog*Spot, will stay a more personal blog.